These are the sort of questions that really test Christianity and faith and the fact is, unless God answers, no one can really explain. I am a Christian myself and I believe in God, but these are the comments that we as Christians need to seriously address. So how do I see God?
Yes, God has been good to me in many ways and many times, but then there are instances when I wish that He could have done more for me in certain areas of my life. This is not a put down of God, it is the way I feel. It is real and yes there are times when I have tears in my eyes when I look back at some of the things, I wished God would have done for me, but did not do. It hurts to the core and yet I am grateful for the things He has done also/
When I think about all of the suffering in this world, thousands who die in all kinds of ways, the question is fairly asked, not Where was God?’ but why didn’t God do more to stop suffering, death etc. To me, each life is valuable, no one in this world is a number or a statistic, and for me if one person dies, then shouldn’t there be at least God on hand explaining why this has happened? I recall the words of a very prominent scientist who made a very telling comment about a child suffering in West Africa from a worm which would not only penetrate his eye but cause him to be blind. In this case, I believe that God can do more- that is, find other ways to achieve His objective without so much human suffering,
We as Christians say that God is omnipotent, omniscient, omnipresent, omnibenevolent and yes these are wonderful attributes of God, but unless God acts and is seen to act in ways where we can see and experience these qualities, it makes no difference whatsoever. Saying that God has power to provide food does not mean anything to a man or woman , boy or girl who is starving. It is when God provides the actual food, that they experience the power of God. That is when God’s power becomes meaningful!
Just as marital counsellors and others state in a relationship, that there must be communication between both parties, I think this is what we need in our relationship to God. It is not enough for us to pray to God and somehow try to discern what He wants or what He doesn’t want, I think God should be able to tell us in the same way that we speak face to face with a friend, If I pray to God, audibly or using my thoughts, God should respond to me in the manner in which I pray or speak to Him. I should be able to speak to God directly and He should be able to reply to me directly as well.
If I am hurting for example, God should be able to say to me Andrew I understand you are hurting, and I am still here with you. Trust me in this matter and don’t give up. I can remove the source of the pain or the hurt. However,if I do not move it, it is because I am still here with you to show you or teach you something . This does not mean that I do not love, you, don’t care for you, or respect your feelings, but I am doing/allowing this for this reason or that reason. This is what God can or should do for us. If I dont think it is enough for us just to pray and wish that it will go away. I think these are times that God must show he is not only present in our lives, but He must act meaningfully- so that we can understand what is happening, why it is happening and what we can do.
I think this is where we as Christians cannot understand these issues. These are real and serious questions which God alone can answer satisfactorily. It is the least God can do. We should have the right to say to God: Lord I am hurting; I do not feel happy about this or that and God should be able to respond to us by explaining what is going on.
The closest to an answer to these issues may be found in the Bible- where God says that He does not willingly afflict or grieve us. This is in Lamentations 3: 33. And that gives me hope that I can still trust God even though I wish He would do more to help. I also found this verse in 1 Peter 5: 7- Casting all your cares upon Him, for He careth for you: Also, in Matthew 10: 31 we have an instance where Jesus addresses an audience telling them that they are of more value than many sparrows.
Inspite of the way I feel, I should be able to trust God and leave all my concerns in His hands. So, I still say to all here to accept Him as Lord and Saviour- inspite of all that you experience. Yes, there is real suffering , real pain, real hurt, real misapprehension of God and death which is very real! I live it and so do all of us here: Still I trust in Him though I have tears, pain, and in the past have contemplated a few times of even taking my own life ! Yes, I have !Yet I know He is there. I cannot understand why I go through all these things neither do I always agree or like the things which He may cause or allow, but I still trust Him. Hope this can help someone in some way.