Frank, so sorry what happened to you. You’re not alone. Many of us pastors have felt defeated by criticism. You may like this piece by my friend Christopher Thompson. https://atoday.org/when-pastors-fall-who-helps-them-up/
Let me apologize for entering that late : Just some weeks ago I was enbarassed - in the Intercity and in the subway : Ttwo very voluminous persons . How could they ? No discilpline ! Just gluttony ! We are slim, the upper class, (?), we meet our obligations ! - The virtue of discipline !
How wrong ! Absolutely wrong ! Some just without discipline , they eat too much (gluttony !), but some are just - large ( look at their mighty wrists) and they suffer - also because of the prejudices they meet instantly and everywhere !
No, I do not forget the problem eaters. And the stress eaters. (My gnardfather, ordained 1910, at least
three evangelistic lectures and a Sabbath sermon the week, could only speak when - overeaten !)
I always wanted to be slim : It ist easy to transport this on a portrait / group photot . Just lower your jaw and appear to be slim : Oh, so spiritual, intellectual, ascetic, devout, intellectual - - -. .
No, I am not an expert on metabolism, but I know quite some people who just are overweighted, , not because of gluttony. And I am not suffering of obesity, but just look at the photso of my ancestors : stout people in all their poverty and austerity . . And now I should look like Gwynneth Paltrow ?
OK, instead of six spoons of poridge in the morning now only five - that scheme practiced during the times brougt nearly 20 pounds less. . That’s s all, but also the limit !.
And, you know : I simlply am cultivating a sort of vanity : As long as I could afford it : Nw seven downtown - tailormade suits. They just have to fit me - now for ten years retired - until my last day on earth. Because my budget in retirement does not allow an eight one !
The spiritually guided person is not at all limited to those to a shape of the couple in “Amerivcan Gothic”!
And also he “world” is judgeable : Fat ?! - What a shame ! Shoud join the latest “Live beter and healthier” - Programs ! Three time the week ito a fitness training center ! But just too lazy !!!