I thought someone might like them! I knew one (opprobrium) but did not know how to spell it, so had to look it up, and there found the other, which I had heard of.
Note the difference between these views and he one by Ellen in Mount of Blessing:
Not by painful struggles or wearisome toil, not by gift or sacrifice, is righteousness obtained; but it is freely given to every soul who hungers and thirsts to receive it. “Ho, every one that thirsteth, come ye to the waters, and he that hath no money; come ye, buy, and eat, . . . without money and without price.” “Their righteousness is of Me, saith the Lord,” and, “This is His name whereby He shall be called, The Lord Our Righteousness.” Isaiah 55:1; 54:17; Jeremiah 23:6.
No human agent can supply that which will satisfy the hunger and thirst of the soul. But Jesus says, “Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear My voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with Me.” “I am the bread of life: he that cometh to Me shall  never hunger; and he that believeth on Me shall never thirst.” Revelation 3:20; John 6:35.
Now I agree that his grace is sufficient. But I think there is more than that here. He provides the righteousness, and that does not mean that it is just imaginary. After all, hungering and thirsting are not satisfied with fake food and water. It must be real and possible for us to receive such a gift. And it is not through striving. And to insist it is impossible is to really disagree with Jesus himself.
In your case with your orientation, I don’t think you can expect it to disappear. But it can be held in check, as you did for some time. Temptation is not sin.
But you have heard this before, and I do not mean to beat you with anything. But I think to believe that being victorious is impossible is to deny Christ, for he seems to have said it is.